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RE: A life to cherish - 12/15/2009 12:36:24 AM
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cherish405
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Anybody who knows me well, knows that I find anniversaries important. Today is an anniversary for me.
Being the 15th of December, it was 20 years ago today that I moved from New Zealand to Perth, Western Australia. So many things have changed since I moved. There's been a lot of health related things that have happened. Hit me right between the eyes really.
Other things have happened too, though. Positive things. I became a Christian when I got over here. I've made a lot of friends. Something that I didn't do back in New Zealand. Yes, I had friends, but when I got here, I became more outgoing. It got to the point that the people that I was living with at that stage, asked me to stay home one night a week as I was just never home. These were people that I moved from New Zealand to Australia with. I used to go out before, but I'd been more of a home body. When I got to Australia, I was working, I'd come home, grab something to eat, and then walk right back out the door again to a prayer meeting, or church, or youth group or the drop in centre where I was one of the leaders. I was always somewhere. It felt strange in the beginning not being home as much as I had been before, but at the same time, it was good.
These days, I'm definitely more of a home body. Depression is really bad right now, and the thought of going out, even with friends really freaks me out. Hopefully that will change again, some time soon.
In the meantime, I can't believe that it's been 20 years.
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RE: A life to cherish - 1/9/2010 10:05:27 AM
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Wow, it's been a while since I've been in here. Thought I'd better come and make an entry so I don't lose my blog.
We had a quiet Christmas. We went out with a friend of ours on Christmas Eve for dinner. Christmas Day, we weren't really hungry after the meal we'd had the night before. For the first time in years, we didn't have anybody join us on Christmas Day. It was different, but good. We could do what we wanted. Nap if we wanted, without worrying what time somebody would show up.
Hadn't planned on being up to see the new year in. My body had other ideas as I really wasn't well.
A good portion of our state is under catastrophic fire alert, including where I live. About 11 days ago, there was a fire that killed 1 person and burned down 28 homes in one town. A day later, a fire was started in another town, caused by lightning. There have been lots of fires so far. Thankfully not as bad as the first. Fire season is going to be too long this year. I don't know how many of you remember the bushfires that happened last year in Victoria, (the other side of the country from me). That is what is expected here in this state.
I've decided to try and make some of my gifts this year. I've got some cross stitch kits and am going to do some things with those. John loves birds and his birthday is on the 27th of this month. I'm doing a bird cross stitch at the moment. John has been watching me do it, but he has absolutely no idea that it's for him. I hope he likes it and likes the surprise.
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RE: A life to cherish - 1/16/2010 9:53:39 AM
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Hey everybody. Just quickly touching base.
Today is Joan's birthday. Won't tell you her age. Not nice to do that.   Happy birthday, Joanie! She's enjoyed her day. Got spoilt rotten with gifts. A friend came over for lunch, and we had Chinese takeaway. We were going to go down to the marina, but with the temperatures being as high as they were, it was decided that Chinese at home would be a far better option.
The cross stitch is still coming along. I have a heap of backstitch to do. The words, outline of the bird, some other decorative stuff need to be done. After that, it's a matter of putting it all together. Sticking it down with masking tape, putting the mat on it, and then clipping it all together, including the glass. Hopefully he'll like it.
The next few days are going to be scorchers. We've been told it's about 107F. Perfect time to stay in front of the air conditioning. I'm not going outside, other than to feed Bailey.
The other day, I got a nasty shock. I went to go and clean up after Bailey and found that there was a dead bird in amongst his toys. Not what I was expecting, at all. I've only ever had to deal with that once before. I know he doesn't like birds, and at the moment, there are some that are swooping him and teasing him. I can see how that would be upsetting. I just wish that he wouldn't take matters into his own paws, or jaws.
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RE: A life to cherish - 1/18/2010 10:09:05 AM
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Tomorrow I get to go back and see the rheumatologist about my fibromyalgia. Hopefully she can suggest some things that can help me further.
Being the perfectionist that I am, I'm going to be unpicking some of the cross stitch that I've done for John. I didn't have a photocopy to mark off where I'd been. I did count the stitches, but I know that it isn't right. I've now got a photocopy so that I can do things properly. Thankfully it's not the whole thing. Just some of the feathers. He still thinks that it is for one of my overseas friends. No clue it's for him.
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RE: A life to cherish - 1/19/2010 12:55:08 PM
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I didn't think I'd need to take pain meds before I saw the rheumatologist, but that proved wrong. I thought it would be an easy case of telling her I'd been really sore and really emotional, and nothing more being done. I'm on maximum dosage of the pain meds I'm on. I was asked to move in a variety of ways. Some comfortable, some not. Then she started moving my legs around and the screaming really started. She got me doing some other movements once I sat back up again, and that wasn't fun either. The upshot of all of that is that I'm having to have xrays done on my lower back and also my hips. She told me that due to the hip problems, she's not surprised that I'm having problems putting underwear/trousers etc on, getting in and out of cars etc. I'm thinking that maybe I should be getting my knees checked out as well.
I've been really emotional for a really long time now. Crying a lot etc. I'm on an antidepressant, that had been helpful, other than the crying. The doctor doubled the med, and all of a sudden, I'm really jumpy, not sleeping well and I'm and truly emotional. Will have to talk to my doctor about that. It isn't helping as I need a definite sleep pattern, which I'm not able to get right now. Once that is sorted out hopefully things will improve. Fibromyalgia need good sleep.
Speaking of sleep, I need to go and get some.
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RE: A life to cherish - 1/23/2010 9:39:01 AM
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Ok, no health related talk this time. I'm sure you're probably getting tired of hearing about it all.
The last few days, I've been getting really frustrated about the cross stitch that I've been doing for John's birthday. I've unpicked, then replaced the stitches, only to have to unpick them again for some reason or other. I was really wondering whether John was actually going to get the thing. I was just about in tears the other day in frustration. I couldn't think straight, and in the end, I just made myself go to sleep. Not a good thing, I know, but I knew I'd be an emotional wreck if I didn't. Anyway, I've stuck at doing the cross stitch. It had some lazy daisy stitches in the top right corner. Are you kidding me?! I haven't done those things since I was about 7! They taught us in primary school, probably for hand/eye coordination and fine motor skills. I tried to follow the picture, and oh boy, what a mess! I don't know how many times I unpicked and tried again. But, it's finally done. The lazy daisy stitches still look funny, but at least the cross stitch is done. I tried to fix the lazy daisy stitches, so some have got a few small stitches holding them open, otherwise it's just a straight line. Now I just have to put the backing, mat and glass on it and it truly will be finished. I'm going to get John to help me with it. Mean, aren't I?! LOL! Well, he thinks that it's going overseas, so he doesn't know that he'll be helping me with his own birthday present.
Giving some more of my silverbeet away tomorrow from my garden.
There is a ladies' meeting at our home on Monday afternoon. Will probably give some of the ladies some too.
Long weekend this weekend. The 26th of January is Australia Day. Our version of the 4th of July. I'm not doing anything special. We don't go and see the fireworks anymore. I get panic attacks, and the last time we were there, things were unfortunately getting rather anti-social.
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RE: A life to cherish - 1/27/2010 10:48:56 AM
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John's birthday today. Got him a beauty! Put completed cross stitch back in the box, wrapped it and gave it to him. He thought I was giving him a cross stitch to do himself! LOL! He was talking about changing the colours, taking his time to do it, how he'd need my expertise. He looked in the box for the yarn. Couldn't find it. Had to talk him into opening the box and take a look. He was so shocked to see that it was the cross stitch that I'd been working on, and that I'd bought it with the intention of giving it to him. It was PRICELESS!
Tomorrow is the day I go to get my xrays done. Need to make sure I have pain meds before I go.
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RE: A life to cherish - 2/1/2010 10:12:16 PM
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Yesterday was a harrowing day. I went to lunch with friends. (Not that that was harrowing). There's been some really bad stuff going on for over a year that I haven't told you about, and won't tell you about. Needless to say, it's hurt a lot of people. People I love, and myself included. Yesterday at lunch, some talk came up about those things. Things I didn't know. Things I don't understand. Stuff that was just plain awful. It wasn't gossip. Unfortunately, it was truth. I don't know how things are going to turn out. Thankfully God does. I was never so pleased when lunch was over.
Unfortunately, it was straight from lunch to a funeral. The man and his family I met just after we arrived in Australia. We rented the house beside theirs. We went to the same church and he and his wife were my home group leaders for a while. We also had a lot of the same friends.
Last night, John and I sat down and talked about the stuff that had been discussed at lunch. It wasn't pretty. I just went to bed early. I couldn't take it. It had been such an awful day, and I just wanted it to be over. That meant that I woke up early and ended up online in the middle of the night. Hopefully I'll catch up on some sleep.
Anyway, enough of that.
Garden's going well. We're getting more and more tomatoes. We've actually put 9 more tomato seedlings in the garden and they've just started getting some flowers on them. Hopefully not too long until we get some tomatoes from them. Not many carrots left. John's corn is over. John's given up on his bean plants. I haven't. I still water them. There's so much of my silverbeet, (like spinach), there, that I've been able to share it with the neighbours and friends. Still plenty growing.
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RE: A life to cherish - 2/11/2010 10:32:19 AM
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Things have settled down since I last blogged, thankfully. My stress levels and emotions were going all over the place for a while there.
I had some tests done on Monday. I got the results for the first time today. (I see a specialist tomorrow who actually ordered the testing. I asked them though to send a copy of my results to my normal doctor). Most things were ok. Cholesterol is good. My bad cholesterol is really down. Liver function test was a bit strange, but the doctor said nothing to be concerned about. My blood sugars test still wasn't as good as it would have been liked. It's gone down, but still not into normal range. I thought it would have been a lot higher as I've been bingeing a bit lately. Some due to celebrations, and some due to stress. I'm glad it's not higher though. Something to work on for next time.
I'm taking it easy at the moment. Reading, mainly. I've got the supplies to do some more cross stitch when ever I'm ready. We'll see how that goes. I'm still waiting for the cross stitch that I ordered for John's sister for me to do for her birthday. It was originally meant to be here for Christmas, but that didn't happen. Hopefully soon. Her birthday is the day after mine, and it needs to be sent interstate as well. The sooner the better.
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RE: A life to cherish - 2/16/2010 10:13:41 AM
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Still no cross stitch kit for John's sister. Am going to have to call them and see what's going on.
I have to go to a women's hospital in the morning. Hopefully it will be the last time that I have to go there. They are the ones that have dealt with all my "women's problems". This one, I think, is just to sign me off their books. I've done the full 10 years that their oncology department said I'd have to keep an eye on things since I had borderline malignant cells found. They've been looking after the hormonal side of things, which is part of what I go and talk to them about tomorrow. Then I have to talk to them about future treatment, as I have family history of breast cancer, (my mother). I'm not looking forward to that side of things. I've already been started down that road, and it really isn't pleasant. Oh well, if it can detect things that are going to be harmful, then it's best that I do it. I don't want anymore run ins with nasty things.
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RE: A life to cherish - 2/21/2010 11:34:28 AM
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My youngest brother went back to New Zealand with his wife and daughter to live yesterday. My brother loves it here in Australia, but his wife has been extremely homesick, and her mother is pretty ill. His wife and daughter came over for 2 weeks holiday before they all left the country yesterday. My brothers are both very close to each other. Always have been. They've been spending a lot of time together lately. I know that they will really miss each other. My youngest brother has a time share place, so I know that they will be back for holidays. Still, I feel sad that they have had to go back.
I'd planned on calling them before they left the country. I didn't think of it until too late. Even if it wasn't, I have no voice at the moment.
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RE: A life to cherish - 2/24/2010 11:18:00 PM
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Last night I was listening to some music as I was playing a game with John. One of the song played was a Sara Groves song called "The Word".
Right now, I'm not having the easiest time in my walk with God. So many people have so many things going on that are so much worse than I do. Still, I can't seem to get past this whole thing of me having fibromyalgia, and the fact that I have one illness, then end up with yet another on top of it. Fibromyalgia has made my life a living nightmare. It's taken away the independence that I used to have. I used to be quite active. Used to take myself off somewhere for a day out, etc. Catching buses and was nothing for me. Now, I get a massive case of the shakes just trying to stand from a sitting position. I can't walk half way down the street without screaming. It takes me up to 4 days to recover after a simple outings, even though I've had to take painkillers before, during and after the outing. I never imagined in a million years that my life would be like this. Part of me wonders what will be next.
Anyway, what does this have to do with the song? I think it's something that I've got to get back to. Somehow I have to get back to a place where I can believe those lyrics again in my heart. Here's a verse and chorus.
The Word - Sara Groves
I think it's time we rediscover all the ground that we have covered
Like 'seek ye first,' what a verse
We are pressed but not crushed, perplexed but don't despair
We are persecuted but never abandoned
We are no longer slaves, we are daughters and sons
And when we are weak, we are very strong
And neither death, nor life, nor present, nor future, nor depth, nor height
Can keep us from the love of Christ
And the Word I need is the word that was
He put on flesh to dwell with us
In the beginning
The Word was the Word is and the Word will be
The Word was the Word is and the Word will be
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RE: A life to cherish - 3/6/2010 8:44:46 AM
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I don't tell people often enough that I love them. That I appreciate them. How I wish them well on this journey we call life. How I see God moving in their lives. So right now, I tell you, my friends, that I love you. I'm thankful that God has brought you into my life. Thankyou for your love, encouragement, friendship, prayers, support. For listening to me vent and whine for the umpteenth time after I tell myself that I must be a better person and stop the whinging. I so appreciate you. When I'm down, so many of you are there to speak into my life. To lift my spirits. To lift me before the throneroom of grace.
Just before I got online tonight, I heard a song that I'd never heard before. Maybe you have. It's a song by Mark Harris, and it's called, "Find Your Wings". I won't put all of it here, but if you're interested, you could google it. This is my hope for all of you, my friends.
Find Your Wings - Mark Harris
Chorus:
I pray that God would fill your heart with dreams
And that faith gives you the courage
To dare to do great things
I'm here for you whatever this life brings
So let my love give you roots
And help you find your wings
May passion be the wind
That leads you through your days
And may conviction keep you strong
Guide you on your way
May there be many moments
That make your life so sweet
Oh, but more than memories
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RE: A life to cherish - 3/10/2010 9:48:38 AM
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I'm just a bit excited. I got a phone call this morning to tell me that my computer was finished and that it will arrive here on the 22nd of March. YAY! It still doesn't seem real that I'm going to have my own computer! Now I'll have to learn how to use the thing! I am so not technologically savvy. I could possibly remember how to put the computer together. As far as burning things, knowing what sort of DVD's to use in the computer and knowing which drive they go in, I have absolutely NO idea! Our current copy still has a disk drive, as in a:/. As far as I know, no computers have those any more! The current computer works on Windows 98 and is a pentium 1. I'm talking ancient. She's served us well, even with all the problems we've got, (no sound, can't see picture properly on it). It'll be good to be able to see pictures again though and listen music online. And I'll get it before my birthday, which will mean that I can say that it's a birthday present to myself. Never thought in my life I'd ever own my own computer. People probably think it's no big deal, but when you live on a disability pension, something like this is a big deal. I'm going to have some fun when it gets here.
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RE: A life to cherish - 3/16/2010 12:18:27 PM
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YAY! Six days early, a truck pulls up out the front of our house. Usually it's a delivery for me with the latest books that I've ordered. Not this time. The guy was standing out the back of his truck, thinking that nobody was home. When I went out there, I found that he had my computer on board! WOOHOO! Got it inside, and started putting it together. Unfortunately the cables don't fit into the modem. May have to get a new modem if there are no adaptors that we can use. Was hopeful of being on my new computer right now, but oh well. At least it's here.
Pulled a ripe tomato off my initial tomato plants yesterday. Knew there would be 1 or 2 more ready today. Turns out I walked in with a bowl full of ripe tomatoes. They'd all been hiding underneath a heap of leaves. I'm not complaining! There's still more tomatoes on the plant, but they are still either green, or not ripe enough.
I have my next appointment with the rheumatologist on Thursday morning, (Wednesday night for those of you in the US). I have to take my xrays with me. They show bone spurs in my hips. I doubt they can do anything about those. It looks like the pain will remain. I guess we'll have to wait and see though.
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RE: A life to cherish - 3/18/2010 1:00:19 PM
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More tomatoes off the tomato plants today.
The trip to the rheumatologist ended up more "interesting" than I thought it would be. From reading the report before we got to her, we found that I have spurs on my hip joints. Not the most pleasant thing in the world. Was just thinking that she wouldn't be able to do anything for the pain. When she looked at the films though, she saw more than we did, and obviously understood more of the report than we did. It seems that I have osteoarthritis in my hips and back. She reckons it will take years for it to get bad. This is bad enough now. I'd hate to experience bad! She showed John and I the facet joints on my xrays. The top facet joints have lots of space between them. The further down, things change, big time! I have to get some steroidal injections in my back. Four of them, but two at a time. I've also experienced a lot of pain in my shoulders the past couple of weeks. I thought it could be just bursitis. She manipulated my arms and shoulders around, and I have to get ultrasounds on my shoulders to see if it is bursitis. She also raised the possibility that I have a rotor cuff tear. After seeing what John had to go through, I sure hope that's not the case.
I'm sitting here in front of my new computer, actually seeing pictures for the first time in years. I've got an old screen on the computer as it seems that the screen I was sent was faulty. They will be sending a replacement. The screen on the computer now is really hard to read. The writing is so small. Need a magifying glass to read this!
I do sleep at night, but my body gets so tired during the day that I fall asleep during the day. That has to stop. The rheumatologist really wasn't happy with me sleeping during the day.
Well, I think that's all for this time. Have to make a quick post or two, then head to bed.
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RE: A life to cherish - 4/3/2010 12:00:15 PM
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Just writing my last blog entry as a 40 year old, in the dying minutes before midnight.
My birthday's going to be pretty low key this year. Had the big parties last year for my 40th. Birthdays in our household mean a special breakfast of ham and cheese croissants. Not very exotic, but it's different from what we normally eat, so, it's a treat. Going out to a movie that I've been wanting to see for a long time. "The Blind Side". I hear that tissues will be required. I'll tell Joan. She tends to cry a lot in movies. My birthday will get stretched. We're going out to lunch on Wednesday to celebrate my birthday. The finances should be sorted out by then.
Got my latest cross stitch done. Waiting now to get started on John's sister's cross stitch. It's a kit, but the last one I did was by the same company for John's birthday. They didn't have enough yarn in there. I couldn't do half of the cross stitch without running out of yarn. So when we are out on Wednesday, I will get some matching colours so that I can start it. John's was of birds. His sister loves cats, so this one will be a cat looking out a window at the winter plants and snow.
I'm not looking forward to my procedures next Friday. The ultrasound should be ok, but I'm not looking forward to the injections in my back. I've been told they are painful. I used to have a high pain threshold, but that was a long time ago.
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RE: A life to cherish - 4/5/2010 10:27:43 PM
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Stepped on the scales yesterday morning. I should be trying to lose weight, but I haven't been deliberately trying. Imagine my surprise then when I found that I'd lost just over 2kgs or 4.4lbs! I was totally stunned! My eating hasn't changed. Oh well, I won't complain!
After seeing The Blind Side, I've really been challenged. How willing are we to step out and make an impact in a person's life? Be a positive influence? Help somebody to reach their full potential? For each of us, what can we do as individuals? What ARE we doing? Something I need to think about. How about you?
A lot of us don't have the money and resources that the family in the movie had. Maybe we have time. Talents we can use. We could help those who are less fortunate than ourselves. Those who are lacking in some area. Friendship. Somebody to talk to. Somebody to show them compassion. Somebody to encourage them. Somebody to show them that there are better things out there. That there is a God who created them and loves with a passion that knows no end. Who could help them get from head knowledge to heart knowledge. No matter what our background, we're all in need of a Saviour.
How willing are we to step out and make an impact in a person's life? Be a positive influence? Help somebody to reach their full potential? Are you? Am I?
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RE: A life to cherish - 4/8/2010 11:33:50 AM
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Oh wow! Thanks for the stars for my previous post, whoever gave them! Much appreciated. I can't remember the last time I got stars.
Tomorrow is the day that I get my procedures done in my back and shoulders. Twelve hours from now, I should be finishing up on my last procedure. The shoulder ones can be a bit uncomfortable. It's the injections into my facet joints that don't thrill me. I have to rest for days after having the injections done so that they can properly do their work.
I've had a productive day. Getting caught up on all my correspondence in readiness for tomorrow. Started the cross stitch that will go to John's sister at Christmas. I'm making it now so that it's done and I then work on my own projects. I'm trying to make a lot of little stitcheries to give away as birthday and Christmas gifts.
Seeing as I have to rest after having the injections done, I'll have plenty of time to do cross stitch when I'm able.
The one thing, other than pain, that concerns me about the cortisone injections in my back, is the fact that Bailey and I will miss each other. If Joan goes out there to feed him, and I don't show up, he won't eat. I can't bend down to pick up and throw his tennis ball. He won/t understand that. As long as he's up on the bench seat beside me, he won't get much in the way of cuddles from me. I'll go out with him. I can't stand to be away from him. I feel guilty when I'm too sick to be with him. Point is, I just love spending time with my boy. He's a very emotional boy, and it goes beyond the puppy dog eyes when you go inside and he'd prefer that you didn't. He gets lonely. He gets super excited when his humans come and spend time with him. To him, it's like everything s right in the world again. All affection given to him then is like the icing on the cake. He just loves his family. And we love him!
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RE: A life to cherish - 4/11/2010 11:20:06 AM
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It's Sunday, and the facet joint injections were 2 days ago. Friday night, things were agonising. The anaesthetic had worn off and the shock and upset of the day had caught up. I was a bit of a wreck that night. Saturday morning, I woke up in pain, but thankfully not as much as I'd had the day before. Night times seem to be the worst for me. I end up feelnig so stiff. Oh well, I'll get over it.
Ages ago, I told you about the garden that I was growing. How I'd started boxes of miniature roma tomatoes, carrots and sliverbeet, (like spinach). The spinach is still growing, and we are still able to share it with our neighbours. The roma tomatoes are still growing. At the moment, they are small and green. They aren't getting the same amount of sun as they were a short time ago. We'll be patient and let them redden on their own.
John planted another brand of tomato into the garden. I've been watering and fertilising the plants, but they are going to have to be pulled out. They aren't growing at all well, and they are now infested with fruit fly. There's holes all over the tomatoes, and one tomato was eate in half and was filled with larvae. We won't be growing those tomatoes again. John said to stick to the ones that we know are successful, which are the miniature. Not sure what other plants we'll grow yet.
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RE: A life to cherish - 4/20/2010 11:10:08 AM
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I've just been listening to a song online. It's called Your Hands, and it's by JJ Heller. Boy do I relate to this song! It's like somebody's reading my mail. I know it's not as major as the things others are going through. There are so many situations going on in the lives of some of my friends. Maybe they will relate to this song too. I'll copy some of the words onto here, and if you're interested in the rest, you can google it.
Your Hands - JJ Heller
I have unanswered prayers
I have trouble I wish wasn't there
And I have asked a thousand ways
That You would take my pain away
That You would take my pain away
I am trying to understand
How to walk this weary land
Make straight the paths that crooked lie
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine
When You walked upon the Earth
You healed the broken, lost, and hurt
I know You hate to see me cry
One day You will set all things right
Yea, one day You will set all things right
When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands
Can you relate to these lyrics too?
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RE: A life to cherish - 4/21/2010 11:33:50 AM
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What is it with the radio these days? The last couple of days I've been listening to KSBJ online from TX. Yesterday "Your Hands" by JJ Heller jumped out at me. Today it was "Lord Move, Or Move Me" by FFH. It was the first song I heard tonight. I can so relate to the songs. They are SO where I'm at right now. I'll post a part of it, and if you don't know it, maybe you'll look it up if you're interested.
Lord Move, Or Move Me - FFH
I can't find the words to pray
I'm a little down today
Can you help me?
Can you hold me?
I feel like a million miles away
And I don't know what to say
Can you hear me anyway?
What I need is for you to reach out your hand
You have taught me
No matter what you'd understand
CHORUS:
Lord move in a way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move (move), or move me
Have you ever felt conflicted? Like you just want to run away from God? Feeling like you just can't understand why He'd allow your circumstances? Angry at Him? Wanting to be away from Him, and yet wanting Him to hold and comfort you? That describes where I'm at right now.
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RE: A life to cherish - 4/26/2010 9:27:54 PM
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I miss my mum. It's the 27th of April here. Today would have been her 76th birthday.
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RE: A life to cherish - 4/27/2010 11:42:48 PM
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Yesterday and today have been painful. Fibromyalgia has flared up really badly. Have been having problems even walking. Needless to say, I walk somewhere, and once I sit down, I'm there for a while.
Tomorrow morning I go to see the rheumatologist. She'll be able to tell us what's impinged in my shoulders. We couldn't figure that out from the report. I just know that both shoulder have something impinging them. I have bursitis AGAIN in both shoulders.   She said last time that if there was any inflammation in my shoulders, she would give me some cortisone injections. So I know that tomorrow, I will have at least 2 cortisone injections. She told me last time that I needed 4 cortisone injections in my lower facet joints. I've had 2 already, so I'll need to get the other 2 done. That's at least 4 cortisone injections coming my way. I don't know what will have to be done about the impinged whatevers in my shoulders.
Next week, I have to go to see a psychiatrist. The rheumatologist referred me. I'm hoping that it will just be a matter of looking over my meds and making any necessary changes, not counselling. I've had so much counselling over the years, and things still haven't changed. If he talks about ways to reduce stress, that don't include new age stuff, or body movement, then I'll think about it. I can't get down on the floor anymore, and it's even harder trying to get back up again. I don't do 'creative visualisation'. Years ago, my doctor's wife tried that on me, and I just freaked. To me, it's a fancy way of renaming astral projection. I most certainly don't want to go there. I won't be hypnotised either. I don't care if they supposedly bring about stress relief. They are well and truly out of my belief system! There may be Christian yoga or Christian acupuncture or whatever, and I won't be doing those either. Just because you put Christian in front of it, it doesn't necessarily mean it is.
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RE: A life to cherish - 4/28/2010 9:48:24 AM
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It's happened again. I turned the radio on, and the first song I hear is "Let The Waters Rise" by Mikeschair. Again, it's where I am. It talks about trusting and following God. I'm not so certain, like the song says, but there's a part of me that wants to. I'm still angry at God, but there are still times when He asks me to do things, and I trust Him enough to do that. To be honest, the area where I struggle most in trusting Him is with my health. I've had so many things go wrong, and there's a part of me that wonders what's going to be next.
In any case, I can see myself in this song too. If you want to know the rest of the lyrics, google them.
Let The Waters Rise - Mikeschair
Don't know where to begin
Its like my world's caving in
And I try but I can't control my fear
Where do I go from here?
Sometimes its so hard to pray
When You feel so far away
But I am willing to go
Where you want me to
God, I trust You
There's a raging sea
Right in front of me
Wants to pull me in
Bring me to my knees
So let the waters rise
If You want them to
I will follow You
I will follow You
I will follow You
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